Day 19 !!!!

Morning vegetable soup. Afternoon two khakhra (chappati made crisp ). Snack sev puri. Dinner soup YAY !!!!!!!

Day 18 damn how time flies

Mercury is retrogade and my life is going to be run by a Satan Saturn it takes forever for work to get done. You appreciate luck when it a goes away. Most of the. time you take it for granted.
This diet thing mayvfinally work. Have some what of a control on what I wat. Eggs for breakfasy . two chappatis and vegetables for lunch one apple at four and one dosa at 8.
 And of course lotsbans lots of water

Day 17 is this hell

Had cornflakes today for the first time in my life finished the whole bowl. It was stIll yuck !!!!plain milk post 30 is still yuck !!!!
Something is wrong with the blogger can't upload photos so gyan will have to do today. So cornflakes breakfast. Veg sandwhich lunch one apple and chicken salad for Dinner. The maid did not turn up again !!!!! So had no option but to eat takeout healthy type food. This diet stuff is much better when u are living with your mommy.
Being fat was not hell enough that levels of depression got raised with the mentally agonising advent of pimples.
Its like puberty went to take a walk and arrived at my door after a world tour. Damn for someone who always had clear skin pimples are literally the punishment of all sins possible.
Antibiotocs dont seem to work. The dark marks left behind just remind me of my mortality or of the fact that beauty is bloody skin deep.
Tried lemon and honey mask and it did help. Then I did the stupidity of mixing nutmeg and cinnamon powder to it thinking it will help and it got me back to square one.
Damn I just hate everything right now. This seems fun hating the whole world I wonder if there is a age for it. Wonder will it suit me. Considering I am suffering the side effects that usually are diagnosed to that of a teenager I earn the right to hate the world in all its available combinations and permutations !

Day 16

Contemplating weighing tommorrow don't know if I should. Day 2 of eating right was pretty good. I finally understand the importance of breakfast

That is poha rice flakes. It was terrible I completely screwed it up. But thank god it was edible.

Lunch was supposed to be sandwhich but ate boiled Chole with chutney and soup. Dinner was one chappati and watermelon. Oh and I forgot green tea at 4. This green tea thing also seems to work because I could feel my stomach work a little overtime. It seemed to gurgle

Anuja who is a super cool

 friend called to tick me of on the previously

 No head and tail diet. That kept me away from the sev puri which beckoned me with love and affection .Day two of sensible diet seems right on track.

Day 15 a new dawn !

My good friend Amit

Who has been on the weight loss wagon from a very long time and has lost some 30 Kgs has been the sacha dost and has written a one week diet. day one was goday and has been pretty cool ! Two glassed of water. Two egg whites, two chapatis and sabji, one apple, green tea 

And nuts and chickeb salad at dinner. 

Did not feel like eating the whole world at any point of time best part did not binge or suffer !!!!!!

DAY 14......

This Sunday the stomach forced me into eating just a watermelon in the afternoon by night I was so irritable I could feel my head thumping with the need to eat.
Dinner was roomali roti. Kebab and curry. I am going to probably die on the pot tommorrow.
What do u think. Is this me owning my weight ????

Day 13 THats how you do it !

Considering that I am tipsy with wine this blogspot is bloody difficult. Nobody seems to read this unless I promote this so this is going to be short. Its been a weird day PMS is Here so I can kill somebody. My husband does not get it after some 14 yes so looks like it's going to be one of those I can kill you fights men can be so demented
Lunch was nachos

That is the nachos I ate while I watcheys the theory of everything brilliant movie I nearly cried. 

Dinner was sev puri and wine. That's the end of the day watching the interview and craving a bloody ciggerate today

Day 12 Already !

Currently sstaring at my very fat stomach and wondering when the hell did it grow so big. I see no hope of it going anywhere.

Lunch was 

Dinner was not on my mind and that was supposed to make my happy but somehow it did not not being hungry depresses me . A A light snack was all it was supposed to be.

But then who could predict what destiny has stored for you . 

There is hope always not now but maybe tommorrow if you have done it once you can do it again and if you have not then dude when the hell are you going to

The loss of not losing Day 11

Having a fucked stomach is hell. I have learned to not hate it too much because it's nature's way of forcing me to detox. In other words to stop stuffing my face for at least sometime.
Last month when gastroenteritis came knocking at my door the only solace was the two kilos I will lose. When nothing like that happened the suffering of that fact turned out to be more irritating than living on apple and buttermilk for a week.
The stomach kicked my ass again today. This was lunch

In defiance of a loveless stomach bug I then ate 

These balls of jaggery and sesame seeds can ruin a already ruined stomach. But I was in mood of a protest.
Dinner was supposed to special because of the harvest festival pongal. But sleep beckoned at a very unusual time and I had to give in to its command.
Beans and chappati was dinner with a special treat of pineapple sheera in less ghee and sugar

Seems like I am going to have to learn to own my weight ! So after ten days of hoping to battle and win my food demons looks like the loss is currently mine.

Day 10 dedicated to friends !

Today has been about friendship. In my life friends have always been synonymous with the best things in life.
Food and conversation go hand in hand. The spice of contemplation mixed with the sweet of nostalgia creates moments which makes happiness eternal.
Lunch was at Bombay blues phoenix and was disappointing as hell.

shaslik sizzler just ate the chicken skewers and the side vegetables. Not bad could have been worst and had eaten  the rice.

Dinner was a delight ! Tried shanty for the first time ! Beer mixed with lemonade not bad I must say. A heart to heart with friends a plate of heartful biryani

Day 9 came and went

There are days when you realise the mundaneness of life. Today was one of those days. It sat somewhere completely bored of itself. life needs a purpose every event in our life builds that purpose birth, education, career,marriage, children.
In my case it is trying to control food.
Couldn't  control the urge for one more chappati in the afternoon 

Then suddenly you surprise yourself. Dinner was an apple and soup. Its good when you can surprise yourself that means there is a long road ahead and at any turn you will emerge a Katrina kaif

Monday day 8 - Life is perfect as is

I am not going to crib about how fat I am looking or how difficult it was to stay away from food.
Today I want us to just remember how beautiful all of us are. How lucky we are to be able to get out of bed every day and know that we look the way we look.

Today I want all the men who read this blog to look at their women and feel lucky. To have and to hold forever. I want them to not look at her and feel  where the hell all that weight came from, or how hot she looked in school, college or a few years before or look at her flabby stomach and yearn for Kareena Kapoor's flat stomach.

Today look at her and be thankful that she is healthy, hold her her hand and kiss her on her forehead and tell her that you love her .Look up at the heavens and pray that you will never ever have to see her suffer.

sunday happiness before monday day 7

Today is Sunday the day made by god himself to rest. My body takes this day very seriously. It decides to sleep the day away literally !
Thevitamins the doc has prescribed seem to be helping as they take me through the week and I dont imagine a fluffy bed of white in the middle of a working day.
Two people we start listening to when its pretty late the doctor and the mother.
So a sleepy day began with no milk in the house and I yearned for the elusive chai .
Afternoon lunch was

MIlk appeared in the evening and so did the elusive chai.it was one of those I am fat days. The Bollywood awards event I was watching on TV was supposed to make me feel bad but somehow the actresses seemed to be a buxom lot ! Sonakshi sinha totally rocked the weight so did huma qureshi ! I don't need to have a 28 waist I just have to get rid of a blobby stomach !and maybe some fat over this face

 With that thought dinner was

there was strawberry ice cream apologies for the photo not being here because before I knew it I ate the whole thing

With that comes to end Sunday. Tomorrow is Monday damn already.

Its the day to be merry ! 6

Its the weekend the two days that take you through the other five days. Saturday is my cheat day. The day that takes me through my diet quest for the next six days.
I eat what I want !!!!!
Today was the dress test but didn't go for the party. I didn't know that I was not going till evening so was careful not to bing on pizza or something which would make my stomach bloat so settled for

Chappati sabji and launcha (pickle)

Afternoon was siesta fiesta. Nothing is as precious and satisying as deep sleep. Evening was romedy now !!!! And I had some cherished company 

Don't have to tell you those are chips and the gorgeous golden thing giving company is whiskey in water. 

Was really looking forward towards dinner but got completely screwed on that ordered a chicken egg roll from kebabs and curries and it sucked.

Its bloody criminal when the one meal you look forward for a week gets fucked.

Well as all weekends they bloody come and go and you don't realise. 

Looks like I may cook tommorrow let's see..

Live for another Day ! Din 5

Ideally I don't like people to see my Hyde side but today they caught me before my cup of coffee.
My patience with pricks comes solely from the huge mug of coffee I down in the morning. Today was not that morning and the side of me which usually gets lulled with caffeine decided to come and play.
It took me a cutting chai to finally stop doing tandav. Which obviously meant I got screwed today on my mission diet.
I somewhat managed to salvage the situation by sticking to my eggs and fruit for lunch

Soon It was 8pm and I  was not hungry !!!!!!!! On the way back home I even went past the chaat wala with just one glance. My undoing was the samosa conversation that the girl sitting next to me on the train was having with my friend..

The walk towards the rickshaw stand was slightly painful. It was then that I saw him he was white and so supple. I looked at him and that was when my hunger took control of me I envisioned him pan seared in a butter sauce with slight seasoning  the rabbit looked so yummy ! Even when that man disappeared with him in the cage all I could think of was how tasty he would be.

Depressed at not being able to eat him I ate the below for dinner

One Tandoori roti with mushroom sabji

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Chicken Breast with saute vegetables.

The depression I felt when I was getting ready for dinner and saw the blob of jiggling mass called Madhu's stomach was monetarily forgotten as I swam in the river of taste. While writing this currently I am looking down at it and just have about given up.

Tomorrow I am going to attend a party and there is this dress, there is always THAT DRESS....Like there is always that one man. This dress is going going to play a great role in making or breaking my till now dodgy attempt to lose weight

There is hope DAY 4

The day began pretty hopeless when one of your friends is a foodie the invention of whatsapp more or less dooms your life. Morning began with a cup of tea, something to do with the fog outside and my heart reminiscing days in Chandigarh. Hunger was in check and I was so proud.
That is till this man

Sid My Foodie friend

Made me wince in a moment by sending this 

In that moment the smell of ghee and lightly roasted potatoes mixed and cooked with sabudana made me close my eyes and just hate myself just a little more. The fact that I looked like this did not help.

If  you think that this woman is looking thin is because I have involuntarily sucked my stomach in. Plus the color helps unfortunately I can't wear black so dark blue it is.

Forgot lunch. Which turned about to be a good idea because I ordered chicken salad ! Did not eat the tortillas on top.
Did not get hungry at all time 9p.m halleluja ! That was a miracle. By that time I had reached home I quickly fixed myself my diet sandwich !

Six whistles in the cooker No oil at all and tastes yummy as hell . little barbecue sauce .little onion and toast taiyar ! p.s marinate and keep overnight

So when the man I introduced you earlier send this at night 

I did not flinch ! There is finally hope !!!!

I could live with u DAY 3

The day began with me feeling thin. Weight like feelings has its good days and bad. So I woke up looked in the mirror and thought Madhu today u don't have to look at yourself and go he bhagwan !

Aj main thin hoon

The eggs were where they were,  so two for breakfast. Today was work from home so lunch should have been creative . That was before the doctor was half an hour late.. There should be a rule against allowing the staff to eat vada pav at a pharmacy, common man half of the guys who come there can't eat that stuff how cruel can you get. The vadapav was the devil tempting me with its glimpse of heaven I swayed for a second. The toast sandwhich stall outside was my salvation. "Bhaiya butter ekdum kam " made me proud of myself.

What is missing there is a boiled egg which I tried eating with sauce. How the

 Mighty fall it's not bad but not a great idea either. So till now the day is behaving itself

The night is a few hours away

Looks can be deceiving the toast has a hint of spread so that I don't have to regret life itself. Vegetable soup and some ten million vitamins the doc suggested. Because I am 30 and as a solution for the exhaustion I feel. Some ten kilos lighter after dieting forever I could have lived with " you need vitamins " but  after eating accha khanna and being a cow this is truly depressing.  I contemplated not putting that photo up. But then what the fuck.That is reality if this is halat at 30 I dont want to even think of 50. Sometimes I think god is a twenty year old kid who hated his parents. 

By the way Jennifer Anniston says she eats everything just works a little hard 

Seriously ! Look at her

 In school those bloody scholar children used to say I only study two hours a day !

Day 2 whatever !

The days began with my legs protesting the forty minutes I make them walk everyday
 I blame the foot wear also. But when you are a size four and buy from the kiddie section you take what you get.
So the day began late with me getting my legs out of bed and then working from home. My coffee making skills have deteriorated. By the time I reached office coffee time was over. There were no murderous tendencies and I even smiled at the boss.
Wore a sari which is one another of my feel good fat dresses but this time did not work looked like a yellow bellpepper.
Three boiled eggs as a friend suggested were breakfast and for lunch a veg Sandwhich !
Finally gave up at four and had a mehenga wala coffee.
Abhi dinner baki, socha ki soup and I have achieved success.
The enchantment of a dynamic play where the raw energy of the actor who at twenty something is nothing short than brilliant ignited the passion of creativity and its brilliance.
The treat by the equally brilliant director Pritesh Sodha ended my till now successful day ! I am not going to even ask how many calories are there in meetha pan

The yellow bellpepper

Mehengi wali coffee

Day bloody 1

Well the day began with conviction wore black with trepidation and a brand new kurta ( which is lose and gives me the effect of being thin but the fat face does not help. ) Coffee cannot be sacrificed at all because my salary depends upon it. Without it I would probably get fired on the first day.

Then came the nuts who were supposed to satisfy but then when were nuts ever enough.

Come 2.30 and I was shit hungry there seems to be some bloody correlation between thinking and eating. So two boiled eggs and a rather oily half fry and a oilier bread.

Day one is doomed already. The ten minutes that I walk from currey road station to office seems like a eternity and better be enough.

My hope of salvation nearly died on the way home with garam garam vada apv calling my name. somehow settled for the salad with mayonnaise and currently not liking myself at all.

Oh and did I mention the husband has ordered two liters of choco chip ice cream wonder whether he loves me at all !

Thats me day one 59 kgs and a fat cow

The very righteous beginning in the morning

The not so righteous end